Those of you with keen memories will recall that I posted a list of ten goals at the beginning of grade twelve. Let’s see how I did, shall we?

1. Get my novel published.

Status: In Progress 

What’s interesting is that this was my number one priority at the beginning of the year. That feeling faded as the year went on. It’s still important to me that I get this novel published, and I’m still working on doing so. It’s just not everything to me like it used to be. Maybe that’s a good thing. Maybe not.

2. Try out for a school team.

Status: Success.

This was straightforward. All it involved me doing was going to a meeting and showing up for tryouts. I thought that the tryouts would be competitive, but in reality everyone was generally supportive of each other, even when some of us made some rather embarrassing errors on the field.

3. Get cut from a school team.

Status: Success.

The aforementioned embarrassing errors were committed by myself as often as not, and as such I didn’t make it past the second cut. Getting cut from a school team is a strange goal to have, but I considered it (and still do) part of the high school experience. A little bit of failure is necessary on the road to success.

4. Make a school team.

Status: Failed.

…Unless you count cross country, of course. But everyone makes that team. I really wanted to have the chance to don the double blue garments of my school and fight for my school’s glory, but alas I only tried out for one team, and goals three and four on this list were incompatible.

5. Film Club – Write and/or direct the first film made by said club this
year, and have it do reasonably well in the international youth film festival.
Status: Half Success.

I did write the first film made by said club this year, but it did not do reasonably well in the international youth film festival because a certain incompetant director failed to even enter it in the film festival. Damn Kevin.

6. Destination Imagination – Take part in this for
the first time and help the team
finish in the top three in the world.
Status: Half Success.

I did take part in this, but we finished 8th in the world; a far cry from the top three finish that I had wanted. You know, I began writing a semi-long blog about the joys (or lack thereof) of participating in Destination Imagination, but never finished it. If I happen to go back and finish it, I’ll post it.

7. Cross Country – No huge goals for this one. At least participate and finish every race.

Status: Success.

It was a simple goal, but more difficult than I imagined it would be, especially since on the day of the last race, the temperature dropped below zero and it began to snow. That was awful. Last year’s final race had been run in the rain, and while that had been a poor experience, it doesn’t come close to the experience of running seven kilometres and losing all feeling in your legs and hands after two.

8. The School Musical – Try to get an onstage role. Either a non-singing role or be one of the chorus
members. Failing both of those, go backstage again.
Status: Two-thirds failure, one third success.

I couldn’t get a non-singing role because there were none. And I couldn’t be one of the chorus members because unlike last year’s musical, which featured a chorus of twenty or so, this year’s chorus was only about five or six, meaning you actually had to be good to be a member this time around. But, I did join the backstage crew again, and I’m glad I did, because if I had made it to the chorus, I would be a thousand dollars poorer right now. But that’s a story for another blog.

9. Find some way to apologize to Camilo.
Status: Success…ish.

I don’t think that I’d be doing this story justice by putting in in here. I’ll post the story of what happened in another short blog of its own a little later.       

10. Debate Team – One of the classic nerd clubs. Do I dare? I’m not sure
yet. This is the lowest priority, but if I have the time and energy, I’ll do it. 

Status: Failed.

I didn’t even bother trying. It just didn’t interest me that much. End of story.

So, how’d I do? Only three outright successes, and a bunch of partial successes and failures? It looks like I failed miserably, doesn’t it?

But I didn’t. In fact, I succeeded beyond my wildest dreams.

You see, I accomplished things far more important than anything I put on this top ten list. And, looking back now, nothing else seems to matter.

I don’t know how I did it, but somehow I managed to accomplish everything that was really important to me, deep down.

I made friends. Friends that I hope will remain close for years to come. That’s far more important to me than winning Destination Imagination.

I actually learned this year – I learned from peers, from teachers, from the younger students, and from myself. That’s far more important to me than making the baseball team. 

I was able to pass on some of my knowledge to others, especially to the younger students. That’s far more important than being in the school musical.

I was able to ensure that the things I have done at my school will be remembered, at least by a few. That’s far more important to me than having my film do well in a film festival.

Overall, I had a great time in grade twelve. I made memories that will last forever, and friends that will stand by me always.  I shared in the joy of my friends, and in darker times I shared in their sorrows as well. I tried to enrich the lives of those around me as much as I could, and in doing so I found that my own life was enriched. My goal was always to make others happy, and when I succeeded in doing this, I found that I made myself happy as well. And that is more important to me than any of my shortcomings or failures throughout these past four years.

Now, having reached the end of high school – a point that I was certain would be filled wih deep sorrow and regret for having failed the test of high school – I hear a small voice in my head telling me brightly:

"Smile, you’ve won."

And so I have. And so I shall.