We’re now onto the final few hours of summer break. How do I feel about
starting the final year of high school?
Nervous, mostly. I have less than 300 days left to achieve everything I set
out to do as a high school student. Will I get it all accomplished? Probably
not. But I’ll be damned if I don’t try. So, here’s a quick top 10 list of goals.
I’m putting it here for myself, so that I can look back on it in case I forget
anything as the year goes on, but if you want to know what’s inside my head,
read on.
1. Get my novel published – Number one priority. This is everything to me.
In a lot of ways, it has nothing to do with high school, but in a lot of other
ways it has absolutely everything to do with high school.
2. Try out for a school team – I’m thinking baseball.
3. Get cut from a school team – If you’re a guy, you haven’t truly
experienced high school unless you’ve been cut from a team. Of course, this goal
should be substituted for goal four if possible.
4. Make a school team – Unlikely, but if somehow I don’t get cut from the
baseball team, I’ll be quite happy with myself. Of course, I haven’t played in a
few years, so the rust is building up within me.
5. Film Club – Write and/or direct the first film made by said club this
year, and have it do reasonably well in the international youth film festival.
Ambitious much? Sure, given my lack of screenwriting experience. But hey, I’ve
written a novel. A short film couldn’t possibly be more difficult, right?
– And as for the directing, that’s secondary. There are people more suited
to that role than me. If I still get the job, awesome.
6. Destination Imagination – Not only am I going to take part in this for
the first time, but despite my lack of experience I’m going to help the team
finish in the top three in the world. Again, ambitious much?
-We generally have a good team, capable of finishing top 5 or 10 in the
world anyhow. Unless I somehow handicap the team and ruin them with my lack of
experience, we should be a contender for world #1.
7. Cross Country – I’m not going to make any huge goals for this one. I
haven’t improved much from last year. I’m unlikely to even finish in the top
100, much less have my score actually count in any of the races. Still, my goal
for this will be to at least participate and finish every race.
8. The School Musical – The rumors and stereotypes are all true: Members of
the stage crew aren’t well respected by anyone. So, for this year I’m going to
try to get an onstage role.
– It’s a musical, which requires singing, right? I can’t sing. That said,
there might be a non singing role or two for me to take a stab at (I don’t care
what anyone says; I’m a fantastic actor), and if not, I’ll be one of the chorus
members. That way I won’t stick out like a sore thumb. Failing both of those,
I’ll go backstage again. Despite the rudeness directed towards the crew at
times, last year was still an awesome experience, and I’ll be damned if I don’t
try it again.
9. Find some way to apologize to Camilo.
– Have I used his actual name on here before? Not sure. That’s "Kid", in
case you’re wondering. I realize that maybe he’s being a bit immature by not
even looking in my direction, but I don’t blame him. I’d probably do the same.
But the fact is that even 17 months later, I still feel terrible about what I
did. After the school year ends, we probably won’t see each other ever again,
and I really don’t want to leave things as they are. You know that last blog
where I tried to explain how scared I am of some people? He scares me more than
anyone else. I probably won’t be able to fix things… but I have to at least
10. Debate Team – One of the classic nerd clubs. Do I dare? I’m not sure
yet. This is the lowest priority, but if I have the time and energy, I’ll do it.
I hate the night before the first day of school. My biological clock is
used to being awake from 11 am to 3 am. Now suddenly I have to adjust to a 6:30
am to 11 pm schedule. That can’t be done in one night, so for the next few hours
I’ll be tossing and turning in bed, unable to sleep no matter how hard I try.
Maybe nerves have a bit to do with it too. The first day at my school lasts
from 8:30 am to 8:40 am. Ten minutes, that’s it. But those ten minutes determine
a good deal of how the next ten months of classes will progress. Will I get good
teachers? Will I have friends in my classes? Where will my locker be? Which
lunch period will I have? All of these questions will be answered in those ten
minutes. Everything could go perfectly, but on the other hand, everything could
go terribly wrong, and then I’ll have to live with it for the next ten months.
Seeing friends again is great, but it also makes me sort of nervous. I
never know what to say to these people who I haven’t seen for three months.
I hope everyone hasn’t changed too much. The first day of school in grade
10 wasn’t too bad because everyone looked more or less the same as they did in
grade 9. On the other hand, the first day of grade 11 was creepy. Some people
had somehow grown six inches during the summer. I used to be average height for
my age, but in grade 11 I was a shrimp. Hopefully not too many people have
sprouted up in this summer. I don’t think I could handle being a super-shrimp.
And now I’m rambling. I’m going to try to head off to bed now. Maybe by
some miracle I’ll fall asleep before two. Maybe. Wish me luck.